Butterfly Effect

I just read this book. I had to take a few days after I finished it to decide wether or not I liked it (and to stop crying). There was one line in the there that made it worth all my tears. She's describes a conversation between a mother and her 17 year old daughter about the Butterfly Effect*. As her daughter is explaining this phenomenon, the mother is admiring the woman her daughter is becoming but also thinking about the little girl she's been.
And here is the quote I can't stop thinking about:

"We flapped our wings in our kitchens, and a wind blew through their futures."

I don't know if the quote makes sense on its own but I think about it multiple times a day. I honestly have to credit it this week for making me a better parent. It makes me want to do more because I know that what I do now has such a great impact on who my children will become. In the end I just want my kids to be good at loving people. So, we'll work on loving each other today.


*(physics) In a chaotic system, the ability of miniscule changes in initial conditions (such as the flap of a butterfly's wings) to have far-reaching, large-scale effects on the development of the system (such as the course of weather a continent away).

June It List

O-Running super fast, soccer in the back yard, "check" clothes (nike), Subway, jumping in the pool, going fishing and being the King of Barbie.

L-Doing tricks on her scooter, singing with the karaoke channel, swimming, her bride and groom paper dolls, dreaming about doing tricks like gymnastics or something, reading and doing math.

J-Laying out by the pool, taking lessons on base (starting with golf, then horseback riding, then sailing), the harbors, watching Bones reruns (obsession?) and dreaming of feeding Lola to the neighborhood coyote.....joking....sort of.

K-His job, grilling, playing soccer with the kids, bodyboarding and singing this song with Lucy. :)

3 Things

I went in to tell Lucy goodnight. She said she wanted to have a talk. I could see that it could easily be an hour of her thinking up stuff so I said that she could ask me one question. She said, "Actually I have three questions...here it goes...One: Where do lizards live?" I answer. "Okay question number two...how do the babies get in the momma's bellies?" I answer-ish. "Okay, mom, last one...will you give me a math quiz?" So, I gave her a math quiz. All of those things were in her head when she started the conversation. I've found that fascinating.

Also, she is missing two front teeth. She could not look or sound any cuter.